Grief and poor health and birthdays

These past five months have been very difficult. My Dad passed away last October and the process of dealing with his death has been at times, overwhelming. I have been trying to breathe through it, to allow myself to be sad and to ride with the tidal wave that is grief and not try to fight it too much.

                                     Acknowledge and move forward.

I have also been sick, off and on since before Christmas. It started out with pneumonia then I got better for a while and then end of January/beginning of February I came down with bronchitis, and I am just starting to feel like I have moved to the recovery side of things. It's very frustrating being chronically sick, I feel like I have fallen so far behind on so many things, so many projects have been sidelined and I have had to delegate my housework and make concessions as to what's most important and honestly I have just not had much motivation     (which also ties into the grief/depression I have been dealing with)



The first two weeks of March have been a major lift for me. The birthday week for two of my immediate family members and I, it is always a great pick me up to celebrate another year with them and I have learned to be truly grateful that I get to make another trip around the sun. Parties and cupcakes and friends and family, what a great antidote for the late winter blues.

When I was a kid I always remember it snowing on my birthday (March 8th). It always seemed prior to the day that Spring was just around the corner, and then bam! my birthday rolls around and snow. It never lingered, just hung around long enough to remind me I am a winter baby.